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Where to Start?

I’ve been thinking a lot about where to start. I think jumping right to the day Beckett was born wouldn’t be the right decision, as his story is bigger than just his birth. Instead I’d like to start in the summer of 2022.

Keith and I had decided that we wanted to start trying to have a baby. We found out we were pregnant in June 2022, and quickly felt all the feels of excitement, love, joy, and fear. We shared the news with our families. Unfortunately we had a miscarriage early on, on July 1. That was a difficult experience. I’ve heard some people suggest that to have a loss so early on doesn’t really “count”. But, the joy, excitement, and love that we felt after finding out we were pregnant was real; the emotional pain that followed so shortly after was just as real. For Keith and I, it reinforced the fact that we were ready to start our family, and that we wanted to continue to try until it happened. Luckily for us, that didn’t take long, and we were pregnant again in September 2022. Again we quickly shared this news with our loved ones and we started optimistically planning for the future.



I won’t bore you with many details of the pregnancy. I definitely had some anxiety early on, worrying about another miscarriage, but the later I got into the pregnancy the more calm I felt.  I did not like being pregnant, but couldn’t really complain with my experience in particular.

Generally speaking, I had a straightforward pregnancy, stayed healthy and active throughout, and had every reason to believe our baby boy was thriving. He kicked and wiggled strongly and regularly. We received excellent care from our midwife. Though one of the ultrasounds identified dilation of our baby’s kidney and ureter, we were assured that this is not uncommon, and could be monitored closely after birth and would likely sort itself out. 

My due date (May 14) came and went, and to say I was tired of being pregnant was an understatement. Finally, on the evening of May 23, I started to have contractions. By 10 AM on May 24 I was in active labour and we went to Foothills Hospital to meet our midwife.

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